In My Own Skin

Gosh I have been struggling lately. Struggling to juggle homeschool, meal planning, couponing, getting the kids to their extra curricular activities, keeping up with my Bible study....you get the picture.  We all have tons to do. I find myself looking at other women who seem to manage it all. They are my heros; they are the ones I stand in awe of. How do they do it all? Did they take some course on how to be a June Clever? 

Then this week, I began to study the story of David and Goliath. We all know that story, but this time something completely different stood out to me. Before David went out to fight Goliath he first put on Saul's armor, but Saul's armor was too heavy and he could not fight well in it.  So, David took off the armor and went out and faught in his own skin and defeated the giant.

Wow. That really hit home for me. We all have this image of what we want to be. David wanted to be a warrior, so naturally what do all warriors need? Armor. But God wanted David to fight in his own skin, his own personal armor.  Maybe that's what he wants for me too. Maybe I need to take a long look at what I am doing and really ask myself, "Am I doing this for myself, or to prove I am some superwoman mom?".  David was not Saul, but on the battlefield in Saul's armor, he would have looked just like Saul. Yet God was calling David to be comfortable in his own skin, because carrying Saul's armor was too heavy.

There are a lot of things I seem to be carrying that are pretty heavy. Maybe, just maybe, I should put them down and learn to fight the good fight in my own skin. Maybe then, that is when I will see giants fall.